Kill this Mediocrity

Sunday, June 6, 2010

God has blessed me so much. I have been heading up a couple of projects at my church that have been rewarding beyond anything I have expected. One of them was overwhelmingly rewarding today. Over the last couple of years God has given me opportunities to minister to the homeless in my community. I have developed several relationships with local citizens who are living in poverty. This has been a huge tug on my heart. To invest love and relationship to the outcasts of the Napa Valley. The Lord has laid on my heart some projects and ministry to put into effect for that specific area of our community. In time and with prayer they will be reality. One of them has been to organize a shuttling system for the homeless community and others for them to get to church. So many people don't go to church because transportation is such a big road block for them. But God won't let that from keeping people from Him. He will always make a way. Because of His time and His planning a need has become evident to do just that, organize a shuttling system to pick up several people from a local transitional shelter in our town. I didn't initiate it. In fact, I didn't go beyond a brief conversation of counseling about it with a couple staff at our church. It was amazing. From the inspiring preaching one sunday from one of our pastors a man's heart was stirred to reach out to the shelter he was staying at. He rallied a group who didn't have transportation who stayed at his shelter. On top of that, there was a group of 3 individuals, two who walked, who stayed a nearby homeless camp in our city. So through emails and phone calls I arranged to get a hold of a larger car than I have and I shuttled in several people from the shelter to my church. During that service at least half of them gave or recommitted their lives to Christ. It was a dream come true for me.
That was last week. Over the last few days I have been working with staff and willing attendees of our congregation who committed to picking some of them up. We have had a great response from our congregation to reach out to the homeless community. We shuttled in 10 homeless or transitional living people from the shelter and surrounding area. It was such a beautiful response from both the congregation and local homeless. God is truly blessing this direction we are going in.
The most important part of it for me was during our amazing worship. I was playing guitar up on stage and I looked out into the crowd of worshipping, hungry people. I looked out and saw a specific young man with hands raised high and tears filling up his eyes. I was introduced to this person before from some previous homeless projects I had worked on. He was my age. He was young. Poor. Broken. Last week He came up to me to receive Christ as his Saviour, and I led him in the sinners prayer. It was so beautiful. Another party in Heaven was taking place for a heart won to Christ. As I talked to him more I heard a story of a broken past and an alone young man. He was the grandson of a pastor. His sister died, his father died, and now his mother was on her death bed. To make things worse he is having to stay at a shelter, for no obvious family is around to help him. My heart breaks for him and his situation. The image of him worshipping and pouring himself out to God in his brokenness will forever stay in my mind. Pray for my friend. He is going through a tough time in his life.
This is only one of many stories that were at our services today. Many of them worse. Jesus asks us to reach out to the least of these. He says that if we give a cup of water to them in His name we are doing it for Him. When we reach out to the broken we are touching a special place in Gods heart. I can't wait to see the thousands of people in Heaven that turned to Christ because of the kindness of a stranger. As a body and as tools of Christ we can be so effective if we die to self, make ourselves no better than anyone else, and reach out to those that other won't reach out too. Let us all get to a special place in our relationship with God, with others, and with ourselves that we are willing to put our selfishness down and associate ourselves with the socially outcast, a homeless person, or maybe a mentally unhealthy individual. Maybe its hanging out with senior citizens that are visited by family only on holidays and are left alone and forgotten the rest of the year. It could be a prostitute in an inner-city, gang infested nearby community. Whoever it is the heart of Jesus is to love everybody, especially those who nobody else loves. Let us have the eyes of Jesus so we can see what He sees. Let us grab the heart of Jesus and stick it inside our chest, so we can love like He loves and touch His heart.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Last night was such a different night for me. I was sick, and was sleeping downstairs with the fire and T.V on. Something inside of me was so strong. It was a fire. It was deep. Something inside of me wanted to change the course of our world. I don't understand why I was so emotional this particular night. Maybe because I was sick and drained, but I was crying so much the whole night. I couldn't bare to see the world where it was, with out feeling something so deep in me. It made me cry. Several times. I have huge dreams and aspirations for the Kingdom of God. I know I must go through process before I see some of it happen. Yet, I will not wait around. I am going to stay busy, doing something for God, while I go through that process. I wish it would speed up, but I know that process will build my character to sustain me when I get to Gods promise. I want to change the world. I want to make a difference in America and overseas. What God has been putting in my head and heart is almost too big for me to comprehend. And it requires me making preparations now and taking action soon. I don't have time to waste time on social human endeavors and finite selfish humanity. As I wait and grow I will be moving forward no matter what...

Monday, October 12, 2009

Love

My world in color, from behind these eyes you will see
This love asunder, left in shallow humanity

To love is to break, to break is to hope, to hope is to love again.

Aimless pursuit of the blind and the breakable.
This wirlwind is too much for a lonley heart to fight.
Until love reached down to love the unloveable
And kissed the bloody scars stitched tight

Now love is left on my lips
In my hands
In front of my feet

Will shallow humanity get the best of me

If love was a melody, I wish I would be able to hear it.....
where the broken widow cries
a hungry childs sigh
the prostitutes lonly night
the begging attics eye

If love could choose to love, then would it?
If hope could choose to hope would it?
I would hope that hope would still hope
I would love that love would still love
But even still thats not enough
The hope in out hearts
The love on our lips
as bearly grazed the broken tips of
WHAT WE ARE
Because 96% of my generation is going to Hell
Because 2/3's of Zimbabwen children have aids
Because 75% of my world is in POVERTY

Because I haven't died..........
as my Savior died
Because I haven't lived.........
as my Savior lived
Because I haven't loved..........
as my Savior loved

I want love to penetrate this scared, cold, broken heart
I will fight to let love, love though me.
Love Your enemies
Love Your friends
Love Your neighbor
Love knows no end
Love the hurting
Love the weak
Love the broken
Love.with.every.heart.beat.

Monday, May 5, 2008


Finally, I am in California...beautiful weather, trashy girls, expensive gas prices, congested traffic.....how can it get any better than that. Honestly, I love home though. I never realized how blessed I was till I moved away from home. Especially, to live in the part of Cali that I do. Its amazing. The beaches and piers, the sweet down town, the places and theme parks near by where you can get your blatter merked by a roller coaster. I don't want to brag about my home or be vain and stupid, but I will openly voice my extreme contentment with where I live. You never know what you got, till its gone. I realize after living in Springfield for almost a year, how good I have it and how blessed I am to have a home in California. I wish all my new friends that I have made this last school year can come and visit me. Then they will finally notice that the West is the Best. Its nice to finally not be an ethnic majority in my state of residence...

Friday, May 2, 2008

My minds eye...

Its amazing to look at life outside the limited, finite box we put ourselves in. Perspective is everything. That is something I have been learning over the last few months. Thats all part of growing up I guess. I want to have the healthiest perspective about life as I can. I don't have the healthiest perspective and I am far from it. It will take a lot of work to get there, but I will get there. Just food for thought. God help me have the right perspective and attitide about life. Lil food for thought.

Saturday, April 26, 2008

Set me ablaze and watch me burn....

Never in my life have I felt more that is God trying to get my generations attention...and never in my life have I been more confused about my own walk with Him and my place earth. Set me ablaze and watch me burn. Strengthen, Satisfy, and Solidify my place in You and this world...Revival in me and Revival in my world.....Great is Thy Faithfulness.....I'm tired of unsatisfaction and an empty cup....its time to kill mediocrity....Jesus overtake me...

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Lets break out the shotgun, we're going to town...

I'm ready to stop feeling sorry for myself and start making a difference. It time for some changes.. .One step in front of the other, I'm not going to be the one who watches life go by as I focus on myself or on stupid humanity, and silly social realms...the race ain't over yet......someday you are all going to know me by more than just janxemy or jearbear or your quiet, researved college friend....this summer is going to be a good one...all i'm gonna say