Kill this Mediocrity

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

Attitude check

I am desperate for a change in my life. I am absolutley in need of change. Is it in my friends?Maybe, though I have realized how blessed I am to have the friends I have. I see what wonderful people God has placed in my life, and I am amazed. I see people who love God and take their relationship with Him seriously. They have beautiful personalites though sometimes the bad side shows up and there are clashes. Still, you need to take the good and the bad together; the drama and all its negatives. I feel like I don't fit in most of the time. That is my only reservation with many of the circles I find myself in. Its not my friends. Is it this school? Probably not, as much as i don't want to admit it, I have grown a lot this year. God showed Himself and allowed me to come here when I had many circumstances against me. I have made many friends for future networking when the time comes take those steps in my carreer. Is it my spirituallity? Maybe. I am not sure of anything at this point. The only conclusion I can come to is my attitude needs readjustment. I get frustrated with my friends and my social life. In reality it is my attitude. This school is amazing. I definenlty need a change of attitude. My relationship with God needs a lot of work, and attitude come along with that. All I know is that something is going to have to give sooner or later, for the sake of my contentment with life and confidence within myself. I need to figure out what is going on....my attitude needs a change.